Dog walking gives me a lot of time to think. Although that is not necessarily a bad thing, I also listen to eclectic musical selections on what is apparently an ancient (and large by today’s standards) IPod donation from our daughter. The music helps to keep the pace of my walk brisk and also diverts my wandering thoughts from becoming too heavy. This became a more difficult task during the month of September.
Waiting for the birth of our first grandchild somewhat consumed my my every thought. I chalked that up to my capacity for motherly worry. Praying that all would go well and knowing that it was all out of my control (and a long five hour drive away,) I wrestled with wonder about the hows, whens and whos about to unfold. Our son and his wife would soon join the ranks of parents. It seemed like only a moment ago that we brought him home swaddled and sweet.
At the same time our family was waiting for our angel to arrive another family was dealing with the harsh reality of losing their daughter, their angel. Ewing’s Sarcoma was winning the battle and preparing to take their precious twelve year old daughter away from them. Since this was happening at the same time during the month of September while we were waiting for the arrival, I couldn’t help myself from focusing on this brutal life contrast, even with music playing loudly through my headset.
Haley entered the world five days after Julianna left it. My prayers for Haley were answered. Julianna was dealt another hand. This circle of life is cruel more often than it should be. Maybe at some point in Haley’s lifetime pediatric cancer research will improve and find a way to halt this inequity. Julianna’s only wish was that people become aware of the statistics and work to change the fact that not much has happened on this front for twenty years. The Truth 365 is dedicated to this cause. Julianna’s story touched a great number of people who never knew her. Her family and friends continue to work to make her dream a reality.
My collage is a visual representation of this month. I have tried to give form to both events of this month. Arranging contrasting angular and morphic shapes expresses the yin and yang of being for me. Reality and the Unreal. Bliss and Agony. Warm and Cold. Bright and Dark. Life and Death.
Siyo Nqoba, we’re going to conquer!
Haley’s room was decorated by her parents with a Lion King theme. The following words are from the Lion King “Circle of Life,” music by Elton John and lyrics by Tim Rice.
From the day we arrive on the planet And blinking, step into the sun There's more to see than can ever be seen More to do than can ever be done There's far too much to take in here More to find than can ever be found But the sun rolling high Through the sapphire sky Keeps great and small on the endless round It's the Circle of Life And it moves us all Through despair and hope Through faith and love Till we find our place On the path unwinding In the Circle The Circle of Life